1. |
Are You Leaving?
03:35
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We talked about it again before you left
Before I felt my tongue grow heavy
And dampen all the thoughts inside my head
They spark apart in turn and feed my dread
The feeling
Of leaving
I don't wanna talk about this any more than you
But while I clamor for an answer
I stagger from the truth
You're the reason that I stayed
Though I'd hate to see you go away
I need to know
Writing letters that I'll never send
Tearing canvas I don't intend to mend
Out of all the people that I've met
You will be the hardest to forget
Will I fade
Away
I don't wanna talk about it
Any more than you
But as I clamor for an answer
I stagger from the truth
You're the reason that I stayed
Though I'd hate to see you go away
I need to know
Are you leaving
Are you leaving me
Just tell me the words to make you stay
Just tell me that things will be okay
Just make things out to be the same
Just make it okay delay the pain
Cuz I don't wanna talk about this any more than you
But I think that you need answers and we both know the truth
As much as I want you to stay
There's nothing I could ever say
I'll let you go
Are you leaving
Are you leaving me
In the last days of our youth
Where we saw through the sinew
Your red hair your blue coup
In the place where I lost you
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2. |
PUZO
03:03
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You can drop me
Honey, I know you will
That won't stop me
From feeling this for you
I would regret
If I ever left the time
When you drove me.
You're forever on my mind.
Honey, I know you well
But I still can't tell
If you feel the same
Honey, you know my name
When I hold you
It's strictly as a friend
Lacking courage
To risk a sudden end
Darling nothing is perfect
But I swear you're right for me.
Should we stop this?
Should I voice my plea?
Honey, I know you well
But I still can't tell
If you feel the same
Honey, you know my name
Honey, I got a question.
Do you think you could meet me
Outside my house tonight,
And drive me anywhere?
I just wanna be with you, still allured by your auburn hair.
In your beetle, with the top down, trying not to stare.
Honey, I know you well
But I still can't tell
If you feel the same
Honey, you know my name
Honey, you know my name.
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3. |
Bookends
04:05
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You were looking beautiful last night as we walked down Easton Ave.
Suddenly I was drawn from the moment.
I wanted to enjoy this but I can't.
It’s 2 AM the pipes are howling
I glide from you on pine that murmurs of my wandering
So you wake to comfort me
To mask your guilt so desperately
I bite my cheek to keep from smiling
You can't have what you wanted
So you try and settle
Stack me on the shelf
leave me by myself
Give me volumes of letters to read
Give me breathing holes to breathe
I'll admit that in the end
You were better as a friend
Though I'd do it all again
I'm between the bookends
I languish in my cell tonight
And dwell on what could never be
Even though I disagree
I acquiesce to keep the peace
And stoke the fragile hope that you stay away from me
You can't have what you wanted
So you try and settle
Stack me on the shelf
Leave me by myself
Give volumes of letters to read
Give me breathing holes to breathe
I'll admit that in the end
You were better as a friend
Though I'd do it all again
I'm between the bookends
I collected dust for years
Fulfilling all my fondest fears
Departing from your atmosphere
A voyage that brings me to tears
Cuz I'm between the bookends
This is something I can't say (change your mind)
But I see no other way (change your mind)
I will not beg you to stay (change your mind)
This is something I can’t change (Change your mind)
This is something I can't change
Hearts beat in reverie
In a dream, you were with me
You'll live in memory
Do you ever think of...
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4. |
Better Off
04:21
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I've spent December dwelling on the subject of our demise
I've found no sane or salient argument contrary to your being right
As the evidence overwhelms me I tear down my lie
That I could rise above this
If only I tried
If you're better of without me
Then what the hell am I?
Are you're better off without me
Don't tell me why
I hope we get in trouble tonight I hope it lasts (I hope it lasts)
We're moving forward from the prologue of our life and so we pass
From something current into memory
At once I start to grasp
The truth that all this is temporary
Someday I'll forget your laugh
If you're better off without me
Then what the hell am I?
You're better off without me
Don't tell me why
I wanted to tell you that things would get better
That I could forget her if we stayed together
But we both knew
It was not true
There are things that I can't change about myself and it kills you
A coldness I reflect that makes me sorry it's me who
Exhausted you
I know that I let you down
If you're better off without me
Then I won't even try.
Are you better off without me?
There are things that I'd like to say like I'm sorry and
I understand why you couldn't stay but I wish you had
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5. |
IDWK
04:29
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You talk a little faster when you're lying to me
So I knew your words conveyed an honesty
The cadence and candor of a deafening whisper
Signs of farewell given in quavering timbre
This happened before and I know it’s gonna happen again
From something more you return to only being a friend
Out out goes this brief candle
Extinguishing our final light
The curtain will fall as the room grows dimmer
I take my cue exeunt into night
This happened before and I know it’s gonna happen again
From something more you return to only being a friend
Why would you say it
If you didn't mean it
At least a little bit
Then why would you
Oh oh oh
I don't wanna know
If you're leaving please just go
Cuz I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
I'm sure that someday someone will love me
But I'm begging on the floor where we lay
I am praying that person is you and that
That day is today
This happened before and I know it’s gonna happen again
From something more you return to only being a friend in the end
Oh oh oh
I don't wanna know
If you're leaving please just go
'Cuz I don't wanna know
I don't wanna take things down then we box them away
Now we'll lower our gaze when we're in the same place
Take my love and replace it with pain
Cuz it's over
Oh oh oh
I don't wanna know
If you're leaving please just go
'Cuz I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
Out of all the people that I’ve met
You will be the hardest to forget
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6. |
Maybe
03:33
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Maybe we could just be friends
Maybe I won't have to follow
Familiar threads that guide me
But in the end, unravel
Maybe we could just pretend
That we won't fall apart
Maybe we could circumvent
The end, stall the break of our hearts
All I know
Is I don't wanna let go
I shouldn't have to let go
Of this
You're all I know
And I don't wanna let go
I shouldn't have to let go
Maybe we were never friends.
Maybe this will never matter.
Maybe you'll forget the times we shared, by the time my ashes scatter.
I recollect the days we spent
Sometimes I even miss your friends
Your sister’s starting high school soon
If I did the math right? Then again...
All I know
Is I don't wanna let go
I shouldn't have to let go
Of this
You're all I know
And I don't wanna let go
I shouldn't have to let go
So I won't
You are the first and last thing
Entombing all my memories
The reason why I can't sleep
If I'm lucky you'll see
The promise I am making
That one day I'll be breaking
You are the reason why my heart has stopped, my voice is shaking
All I know
Is I don't wanna let go
I shouldn't have to let go
Of this
You're all I know
And I don't wanna let go
I shouldn't have to let go
So I won't
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7. |
Alacrity
04:22
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Stay, sweet idyllic youths of May
Will your values stay the same
As your summer starts to fade?
Wait, for the laugh that makes you shake
Tone to which your comfort breaks
Your bones now have turned to clay
I'll sway, till the note starts to decay
I will quake to your dismay, I will smolder in your haze
So stay sweet idyllic youths of May
May you never halt your ways, may your heart race once a day
There is nothing wrong with excitement
An alacrity in your voice
They'll try to destroy your passion and joys it's true
There is nothing wrong with you
"Such a brilliant observation
But I'm immune to your assertations"
They say you deserve this, they make you feel worthless
"I’m the gray above the pines
Harbinger of darker times"
Stifle the voices, that poison your choices
There is nothing wrong with excitement
An alacrity in your voice
They'll try to destroy your passion and joys it's true
There is nothing wrong with you
We could eke out an escape
If we left our things today...
There is nothing wrong with excitement
An alacrity in your voice
They'll try to destroy your passion and joys it's true
There is nothing wrong with you
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8. |
Fallow
04:04
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Hollow gaze in your eyes,
Our fallow days didn't survive
I followed your imperfect plan
Carved for your "better" man
And I fell
Farther than
You could tell
I see how
I see how you see me
I see now
That we could never be
I reach out
For hands to hold
And smother
Love until it's cold
You're everything that's keeping me here rather than running away
And in the throes of confusion, your smile forces me to stay
Some days I try to find fault where there is none
By night I feel your pull and know you've won
But as I watched the door shut behind you
As the night eclipsed our sun
I thought
Maybe I should have run
Everything we had was broken
Recognizing all your faults
This is better left unspoken
But I'm savoring our fall
Lingering on ended moments
Madness wears the guise of love
Everything we had was broken
Everything we have is done
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9. |
Two Weeks Later
04:43
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Two weeks later I read the report
Recalled that winter afternoon spent sitting on your floor, the stories of your...
The stories of your high school days
How your parents removed your door
Did you ever feel like a guest in your house?
Did anyone ever assuage that doubt? No
I felt like a thief reading about your life
the reporter drew you with a knife
Void of all sympathy and explanation
He left no room for retaliation
I read about the car you stole
I read about your father's funeral
In his obituary, it said he was survived by you
Sadly that's no longer true
And I'm confronted now with harrowing logic
Shoved down my throat, impossible to dodge it
One day you will read my name in the very same paper
Reduced to my birthplace and college major
This will be the subject that all of my friends talk about for at least the next few months
Intermittent like a tragedy, your name shall come up.
(You were notorious, I thought you avoided us, they sent you to Florida)
All our memories and dreams are swiftly fading from
All of the people
You associated with, one by one
An ever-shrinking list
One by one they will be someone I miss
One by one we go into the mist
One by one we shall cease to exist
One by one our memories will be eclipsed
One by one will I be someone you miss?
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10. |
Fading Away
05:57
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I think I'm fading away
I think I'm falling out the picture and crawling down from the frame
Give me a few more months before you forget my name
Or the place we met.
Am I one to forget?
I think I'm fading away
I think I'm fading away
More often I am finding less and less to say
Punctuated by the silence, I abstain from all
The ways you try to be cool
Always verging on cruel
I can't hear my mouth
My words are drenched in doubt
There are things I'd like to say
But they always slip away
Again
As I fade again
Away again
I fade again
I think I'm fading away
I've become impertinent and fear my words will stay
strangled in obscurity 'cuz one cannot be
great and stay comfortable
Success always stems from struggle
I can hear my mouth
My words still filled with doubt
but all the things I want to say
Come pouring out anyway
Again
As I fade again
Slip away again
I fade again
Our last vestige of youth
Alluring us and eluding us
I'm alluding to the delusion that I still need you
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